I've seen you shake and I know
what it cost you
I have heard your words, now I am big on your noise
My eyes aren't big enough, because I can't see your hands
I can't see what you hold, I am growing now as I watch you fade
Now I know what you know and I'll break the chains that you have
made
These chains you've made for me
I will pull you down
I know I'll fail in style
I long to touch your genius hands
I am growing now as I watch you fade
Now I know what you know and I'll break the chains that you have
made
These chains you've made for me, yeah, yeah
I will pull you down
I know I'll fail in style, I will I swear
I'm full of shame
Your genius hands, your genius hands
I break every day stressed
out in every kind of way
I am sick and tired of being sick and tired
All I need and crave is a loud life with the power to fade
I am living because I keep it all, keep it all inside
Yeah, I keep it all, keep it all inside
Yeah, I keep it all, keep it all inside
Love won't work for me I want women who are out of my reach
I'm sick and tired of living all alone
All I need for sure is a big love with the power to make more
I am living because I keep it all, keep it all inside
Yeah, I keep it all, keep it all inside
Yeah, I keep it all, keep it all inside
I know I'm close to the fall
I know I'm dangerous
I'm afraid I'm going down
I blame my family, their damage is living in me
I am sick inside and tired of my life
All I need I swear is to go out with the power of a nightmare
I am living because I keep it all, keep it all inside
I keep it all, keep it all inside
Yeah, I keep it all, keep it all inside
I know I'm close to the fall
I know I'm dangerous
I know I'm not going down alone
I keep it all, keep it all inside
I know I'm close to the fall
I know I'm dangerous
I know I'm not going down alone
I'm not going down alone
Right now day one I fall hard
when I fall I always fall on you
Face first, head down, eyes closed, arms out to break my fall,
we fall down
Like a world of noise we get lost inside the length of our own
time
And the laughing world will never forget that it's when you jam
that I jet
I see, I want, I reach, I fail to hold the things that I need
I turn out, reach for you
I want to touch our life before it fades like a burning car in
the sun
We flame for the all in plain view
And the laughing world will never forget that it's when you jam
that I jet
The laughing world will never forget
The laughing world will never forget
Turn away from the pain you
don't want
Turning down to avoid them when they call
Strange words I heard a long long time ago
I wish I could go back to a summer time I knew more than twenty
years ago
Lay between the sheets we lie underneath the maple tree
Now I can't smile
Lying down in the grass with the wind around us as we smile and
talk
Listen to your Grandma sing those country songs
She'd tell us how the maple turns to fire every four years
We'd lay in the grass all summer just to watch the autumn come
around
I can't smile
Now I can't smile
I live alone and you're so far away
I call you every year just around the holiday
I still see you in the night lying above me in the grass
I can't smile
Turn away from the pain you don't want
Turning down to avoid them when they call
I can't believe this letter that says you died
I think I'm gonna go back to the house in North Carolina and lay
in the backyard
Get drunk and let the leaves just bury me
Bury me
I can't smile
Now I can't smile
I don't know what's happening to me
I don't know what's happening to me
I can't smile
Jackson met a girl in a valley
town
They fell into a teenage love she'd grow to hate
He's in prison now since he beat her down
He got her pregnant and she made it go away
Hey hey hey hey Pennsylvania
Pennsylvania
I got a card today from a girl I know
She used to live alone in Philadelphia
She had to leave the state for a choice she made
She says she feels just like a hostage in her home
Hey hey hey hey Pennsylvania
Pennsylvania
You can close your eyes you can fall and die
You can make your laws and make it go away
You can close your eyes but you can't make it go away
Can't make it go away
I just got a call from my uncle Mike
He said he left his wife and he's not going back
Said she changed her mind about a desire child
I asked him if he wants a place mat or a wife
Hey hey hey hey Pennsylvania
Pennsylvania is wrong
You know I want to be the way
you want me to
Big hearted and tall enough to cover you
I would break in half if you said it out loud
Splinter out of myself just like mercury
I think it's better now than how it used to be
You were lying in bed and I would levitate
I think it's better here, than where we used to be
I wish I could go out into the Oregon sun to be alive in the day
I would smile at everyone
I remember you back in '83 you were dressing insane
You were my everything you were so different from all those other
girls
A blind Electra in drag so cool and casually lame
I think I'm better now than how I used to be
Always nervous and weird, scared most of the time
I think it's better now than how it used to be
Always up in the night afraid to live in the day
Afraid of being afraid
Afraid to live in the day
Afraid of being afraid
Now I sit alone when you're not around
I read aloud just to hear a friendly voice
I see you scary dolls they always look at me
From the corner of my eyes I see them shake their heads
You know I want to be the way you me to
Big hearted and tall enough to cover you
You know I want to be the way you me to
I wish I could go out just to be alive in the day
To be alive in the day
Maybe I went too far this time
I just go crazy when she says no
Angel turns away, pulls her dress back down, slowly washes her
face
Takes the bus to her job downtown
She said: "I'm OK, don't worry about me"
Now she thinks for herself: "Hey what happened to me?"
I told him that I thought it was over told him that I wanted to
leave
He used to touch me so nice when we first met
I never dreamed he would hit me I never dreamed he would hold
me down
She said: "Don't worry about me I won't worry about you"
"I don't want to be friends", she said, "I'm OK"
Just leave me alone, just leave me alone
She said: "Don't worry about me I won't worry about you"
She said: "I'm OK don't worry about me"
I don't want to be friends
Just leave me alone, just leave me alone
Don't worry about me, don't worry about me
I remember when you seemed
real shiny with the sweat of your voice
Shaky hands super loud and teenage mouth
We were all charmed and taken by your talk
Now I shudder when I hear the rhythm of your walk
Now I've got no place to go I've got no place to go
I've got no one, nowhere, no one
I have given up on the sparkle that I saw in your eyes
I have sinned the sin of wanting more
The belly fire pulls the spirit from the corporate whore
I'm embarrassed by the plaid you wear
If I were you I'd hide behind that stupid bleach blonde hair
Now I've got no place to go, I've got no place to go
I've got no one, nowhere, no one
I have given up on the sparkle that I saw in you
Yeah, that simple minded sparkle that I thought I saw
Yes, I have wondered why you changed
I like it when you were super loud
I have wondered why you changed
I like it when you were super loud
Now I've got nowhere to go, I've got no place to go
I've got no one, nowhere, no one
Now I've got no place to go, I've got no place to go
I've got no one, nowhere, no one
I wonder if you're giving in, tell me why you're giving in
Tell me why you're giving in
I know a couple who are in
love living in the best of times
A truer love you will never know
Right next to a pain they'll never realize
Sheltered from it in a loving glow
Young and happy and oh-so politically correct
Just get it if you need it now
Just go buy it if you need it in your life
Don't you worry if it all runs out
Don't worry because it never will
I know a young girl living in the shadow of the kind of life that
she could never make
She takes it all and gives it back in love to handsome artists
in her native state
She is the angel of the loser and the disenchanted soul
Just get it if you need it now
Just buy it if it makes you happy
Don't you worry if it all runs out
Don't worry because it never will
Just get it if you need it now
I know a couple who are in love living in the best of times
I hate waking up it means that
I have to die again tonight
35 years old and I'm still sleeping outside
Yeah, I think I know your face I don't wanna to know your name
I won't give in, I'm not like that
I won't give in
You say it's Christmas Eve that don't mean nothing to me
Just another fucked up day just another waste of time
You wonder why I live like this, man, you just won't understand
I won't give in I'm not like that
Yeah, I won't give in
You smart ass college fuck
Act like you think you're tough
I was just like you
More pride than you could know
Think you pity me
I'll kick your ass if you pity me
I won't give in I'm not like that
No, I won't give in to you
Just go away
You college boy act like you think you're tall
I won't give in I'm not like that
No, I won't give in
I will live, I will live for
a year or two
Maybe just for a year
I will die, yes, I will die
I rest secure in that
I am awful sure that this thing ain't no accident
And I just can't believe that AIDS is just some act of God
I will reach for you, I will reach my hand
No one will reach for me, no one will touch my skin
Yes, I will accept, I will accept my pain
I don't deserve to die like this no one deserves to die like this
Sometimes I get so mad I just want to break the world
Sometimes I get so mad I just want to break the world
Break the world
I will not be denied, I will not be ignored
I am not invisible anymore
I will not be denied, I will not be ignored, I am real
I won't go away, I am not invisible anymore
Sometimes I get so mad I just want to break the world
I get so mad I just want to break the world
Break the world, break the world
Evergleam and I know why God
is good and Jesus loves me
Heaven lives and I know where
Sounds to me a not so easy chair falling free and living down
Stringing out and over and happy
Evergleam and I know why it isn't real and I'm not going to break
Not going to break
Don't die don't give in to it, no way, no way
Please don't leave me
Evergleam and I know how pulling hair and breaking voices
Spin the wheel it will give you now
Spinning wills don't give you choices
Give away the spark inside, you give away the shining prize
Evergleam and I know how it isn't real and I'm not going to break
I'm not going to break
No way, I'm not gonna break
I'm not gonna break
No way
Evergleam, everywhere, ever weird, everyone
Evergleam, everywhere, everything
I'm not going away, not going away, not going away
No way, I'm not gonna break, not gonna break
No way, I'm not gonna break
I won't see you there I'm not going away
No way, no way, no way
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